Ashamed (The Family #3) Read online

  “Does it hurt?”

  “No. Touch me.” He took her hand and wrapped her fingers around his length. Gritting his teeth, he tried to control the pleasure that was rushing through his body at her touch alone.

  Never had he felt such an instant connection to someone, and yet with Raine, everything felt so natural to him. It was clearer than anything he’d ever experienced.

  “Do you feel that?” he asked.

  “Yes. I do. Is this normal?”

  “I don’t know. I only know how much I love having your hands on me, and I don’t want you to remove them.” He groaned as her thumb flicked over the tip, taking his pre-cum. He watched as she put that same thumb to her mouth, and licked the cream off her finger. It was one of the hottest things he’d ever seen. “Do you want to taste me?” he asked.

  She nodded.

  Stepping closer, Luiz held his cock with one hand, while with the other he cupped the back of her head. “Don’t use teeth, just your lips and tongue.”

  Raine nodded. She didn’t shove him in her mouth. Instead, she flicked the tip of his cock with her tongue, tasting more of his pre-cum. She covered the head of his cock and sucked a little. Getting his length nice and moist, she lowered her mouth over his dick until he sank to the back of her throat. She pulled up with only the tip inside her mouth, and did the same thing all over again.

  “Oh fuck, that feels so good, baby.”

  He pumped inside her mouth, watching as his slick cock appeared and disappeared inside her mouth. Her saliva coated his flesh, and the warmth of her mouth was sheer heaven.

  Tugging on her hair, he pulled her off his length.

  Her lips were plump and red. “Was I doing something wrong?” she asked.

  “Not at all. You were doing everything right, baby.”

  She smiled.

  “I can’t last long with your mouth.”

  He liked being her first. She was his to train, to teach her how to enjoy everything he had to offer.

  Leaning down, he took possession of her mouth. At the same time, he got her to move backward on the bed until she was near the pillows. Pressing her down, he broke away from the kiss, and started to kiss down her neck, sucking over her pulse. He drove her wild, seeing her body’s response to his touch. Her nipples were rock hard, and her chest was flushed, not to mention her pupils were dilated.

  Moving between her thighs, he reached over to the drawer, and took out a condom.

  “Are you ready for kids?” he asked.

  “I love children. Do you want kids?”

  He nodded. “Yes. I’d love for Christie to have a little sister or a brother to boss around. We don’t want to make it too easy for them.”

  Raine smiled. “One day.”

  Just not today. He wouldn’t mind if she was pregnant soon though. This was a new stage for the pair of them, and even though they both had Christie, he didn’t want to screw anything up. There was no chance of their life ever being simple, but he could make sure their life was perfect together.

  Tearing into the condom, he slid the latex over his cock, and moved between her spread thighs.

  “Will this hurt?” she asked.

  “I think it does for you. I’m going to take this really slow, okay?”

  “Yeah. This is weird, right?”

  “It is weird, but I’ll do anything to make it good for you.” He gripped his cock, pressing the tip against her entrance. Staring into her eyes, Luiz slowly started to ease inside her, breaking through her hymen.

  Immediately Raine tensed up.

  He stopped, waited, and then pushed a little more.

  She frowned, and he stopped again.

  For several seconds or even minutes, he started and stopped, not getting very far inside her. She hated the pain, and he saw that in her eyes. He didn’t want to cause her any kind of pain, and yet that was exactly what he was doing.

  Gritting his teeth, he slammed every inch of his dick inside her, and finally claimed her for his own.

  She cried out, and he wrapped his arms around her, holding her close. He didn’t move, and stayed still inside her.

  “I’ve got you, baby. I’ve got you.”

  “Ouch.”

  “I know. I know.” He kissed her shoulder, and closed his eyes, counting to ten to try to stop himself from feeling any arousal. Her pussy was incredibly tight, and warm, and fucking perfect. He didn’t want this to end, not for a second.

  He lifted up, and stared into her eyes that were filled with tears. “What’s the matter, baby?”

  “That hurt. You’re not small. If you were small it wouldn’t hurt.”

  “And I wouldn’t be able to satisfy you. Something tells me you’re going to be a handful.”

  “You’re not moving,” she said.

  “I don’t want to hurt you. This is about the two of us, not just what I want.”

  She licked her plump lips. “How does it feel to you?” she asked.

  “You’re tight, and warm.” He closed his eyes and moaned. “It’s hard for me to not just take you. This is amazing. Does it still hurt?”

  She shook her head. “Not as much.”

  “At least you’re not cursing me anymore, and you’re not threatening to kill me. I’d say that’s a good thing in my book.”

  Raine chuckled. He stroked his fingers down her cheek.

  Luiz eased out of her body, and watched as her eyes grew wide. They weren’t filled with pain.

  He knew Raine. He knew her better than she knew herself.

  Slowly, he took his time, making love to her body and showing her exactly how good it could be between them.

  Reaching between them, he held himself deep inside her, and stroked over her clit, drawing another orgasm from her body. Only when she had come a second time, did he find his own release.

  When it was over, he pulled out and lay beside her, pulling her close to him.

  “That was beautiful, thank you,” she said. Tears were leaking out of her eyes, and he frowned.

  “Did I hurt you?”

  “No, not like that.”

  “Raine, you shouldn’t be crying. I hurt you, didn’t I?” he asked.

  “No, you didn’t hurt me. In the beginning you did, but after that, you didn’t. It was wonderful, Luiz. I never thought it could be.”

  “Why are you crying?” he asked.

  “I don’t know? I’m twenty-two, and I’ve never felt like that, not with anyone. I’m a bit emotional. First orgasm, first sex, give me a break,” she said with a smile.

  “I’m sorry. It has been so long ago that I didn’t even think about what it would mean to you.”

  “Was your first time with Lora?”

  “No. My first time was because my father decided that it was time for me to be a man, and the only way he thought I could be a man was for me to kill someone, and then fuck a whore.”

  “Oh.”

  “This, between us, meant everything to me, Raine, and I’ll treasure it for the rest of our life together.”

  He meant it.

  This wasn’t about him clutching at a way of getting away from The Family. He accepted this was his place, and where he was going to stay. Raine accepted that. She accepted him, and he’d do everything he could to make her proud.

  ****

  Two days later

  Raine watched as Christie slept, completely content in her new world. She loved school, loved hanging out with her dad, and loved spending time as a family with them all. Closing the door, all the way this time, Raine entered the sitting room to find Luiz sitting on the sofa, legs spread, drinking a beer. The last couple of days had been heaven, and she knew without a doubt that it was about to come crashing down on them.

  “Hey,” she said. “Christie’s asleep. Swimming took it right out of her today.”

  “She was yawning all through dinner, and you made her favorite, lasagna.”

  “This school is fantastic for her. Her teachers challenge her in ways the other schoo
l didn’t.” She took a seat beside him, lifted her feet beneath her body, and rested her head in her hand. “What’s wrong?”

  “Nothing.”

  “You don’t need to lie to me. I’ve told you for a while now that I can take whatever you need to tell me.”

  “Are you so sure about that?” he asked.

  “Why don’t you try me and find out.”

  “Bracken,” he said.

  She turned to look at Xander’s urn. His ashes were still waiting to be spread, and she knew that The Family wanted to do something about Bracken. Time never stood still for any of them.

  “Don’t worry about it.”

  “Tell me, Luiz. I need to hear whatever has to be said.” She took his hand, locking their fingers together, and kissing his knuckles. “Trust me to not freak out.”

  He nodded. “Donnie has arranged a meeting for tomorrow. We’re going onto Bracken’s territory, and we want to make a deal with him.”

  “What kind of deal?” she asked.

  “We want him to come out of hiding. To take his place with us, and to promise no more retaliation.”

  “I thought you said the men who hurt him were all dead?” she asked.

  “We believe they are. If we’re wrong, we want to help him.”

  “What about Xander?”

  “They want me to overlook it.”

  “Oh.” She didn’t know what to think. “What do you want to do?”

  “I don’t know. I want to punish him for taking Xander away from me, from us. Then I think about that damn file, and I wonder if killing one for the other would do any good. It was an old score, one we don’t have any say in.”

  “So you want to leave it alone?” she asked.

  “What do you want me to do?”

  “I want you to do whatever you need to do for The Family. I do trust you, Luiz, and I know this is important. Donnie wouldn’t have said it was, if it wasn’t.”

  He tugged her so that she was over his lap, straddling him. “Thank you.”

  “What for?”

  “For being understanding. For not kicking me in the balls, and for giving me a chance to figure this out.”

  She wore a skirt, and she smiled as he began to pull it up her body. To surprise him, she wasn’t wearing any panties. Reaching into her bra, she pulled out a condom. “How about you make it up to me another way?”

  “I’d like that. I’d really like that.”

  This time, she tore the condom open, and shuffled back onto his legs as he took his cock out of his sweatpants. He was already rock hard, and she saw the tip slick with his pre-cum. Working the condom over his dick, she took his hands, and followed his direction. As she sank down onto his cock, they both moaned. He was so hard, and even though she was a little tender, she loved the feeling of him filling her.

  Sitting on his cock, she held onto his shoulders, and started to rock against him.

  “Babe, do you have any idea what you’re doing to me?” he asked.

  “The same as what you’re doing to me.” She wrapped her arms around his neck, licking his earlobe before sinking her teeth into the tender flesh. “Driving me crazy.” She whispered the words against his ear, and they both moaned.

  Luiz grabbed her ass, and started to lift her up and down on his dick. Pulling the skirt up to her waist, she watched them together, his cock filling her.

  “Touch yourself,” he said.

  She slid her fingers through her slit, and like Luiz had showed her the other night, she started to stroke her clit. Staring into Luiz’s eyes, she knew it was too late for her. She had fallen for this man. He was dangerous, at times annoying, but to her he meant everything, and she wouldn’t have him any other way.

  Regardless of what happened with Bracken, she trusted Luiz more than anything. He wouldn’t do anything to hurt her. He’d protect her, just like he had done in the past.

  Slamming her lips down on his, she only hoped that it would be enough for her.

  ****

  “A security office? Is this guy for real?” Luiz asked, looking up at the building. Bracken’s base was on the top floor near the roof. The only advantage to that that Luiz could see was throwing his enemies to the ground below.

  “Maybe you should stay behind,” Jake said.

  “What? Fuck off. I’m here, and you’ve already taken my guns away from me. You don’t have to worry about me freaking out, and you know, killing him.” He didn’t know how he felt about actually being here. Xander had died because of this man, and yet he was willing to work with him.

  Raine hadn’t spoken much to him today, even though he’d spent most of last night making love to her. It wasn’t like Raine to be silent, and he knew it had to do with him being here today.

  “He’s right,” Donnie said. “We’re here together as a team. I’m not going to worry about him trying anything. He shoots Bracken, we’ll get trouble. He doesn’t shoot Bracken, we could still face a great deal of trouble.” Donnie shrugged. “We’re here together in good faith, nothing more.”

  They climbed out of the car, and several guards came along with them.

  Donnie held them back at the door.

  “If you hear anything, we all want you to go. No questions asked. You leave, and don’t look back,” Donnie said.

  Luiz saw that all the guards wanted to argue with him. They were loyal, and didn’t believe in leaving anyone behind. Entering the main building they all walked toward the elevator.

  “Zara invited you all over for pizza,” Tonio said.

  “Saturday?” Luiz asked.

  “Yes. She’s willing to do any of your toppings that you want.”

  “Buffalo chicken?” Donnie asked.

  “Yes.”

  “Rock on,” Jake said.

  Zara used to work in a pizza shop, and had learned everything from her father. She was the master at pizza making.

  Tonio didn’t order takeout. He called Zara and got her to cook one for him.

  “So assuming we survive, we can look forward to a weekend of food,” Luiz said.

  “It would be a good time to invite Bracken as well. Providing everything goes well today,” Tonio said. “It was Zara’s idea. She believes that food makes the world go around.”

  “It does,” Donnie said.

  The elevator pinged open, and Luiz tensed as they met a wall of guards. He didn’t recognize any of them.

  “Gentlemen,” a man said in the center of the group.

  Luiz wanted his gun, and he wanted it now. He didn’t like being faced off with men who were pointing guns at him.

  Four men parted, and Luiz paused when he saw the man they had revealed. Bracken was huge, well over six feet tall, and muscular. He wore a suit, and it was tight over his arms. His face was scarred, and down his neck. There were three scars across his cheek, from his ear down, and from the looks of it, one going from his forehead down. Whoever had made that, had been sure to miss his eyes.

  “Wow,” Jake said.

  “It has been a long time since I last saw you boys,” Bracken said. “I believe you were still in diapers.”

  “I wasn’t that young,” Donnie said. “I remember the rumors about you. Thought you were dead.”

  “I was, or at least I thought I was. A couple of the men who were loyal to me, and no one else, they helped me. They got me to the hospital, and made sure I survived.”

  Luiz stared at the man’s face, and knew without a doubt that he had suffered, and not in a good way. This was who had sent men after Xander.

  “Shall we?” Bracken asked, and pointed behind him.

  “You think we’re going to trust you?” Tonio asked.

  “You’re the ones that reached out to me. Not the other way around. I have to say I was surprised that you wanted to meet me. The Family did everything they could to get rid of me.”

  “In case you didn’t hear, The Family has undergone a change in leadership,” Luiz said.

  “I heard, and I was shocked. Their own
sons went after them.”

  “They had to be stopped,” Donnie said. “No one else had the balls to do it.”

  “Or they weren’t fucking stupid. Taking over from them requires a great deal, are you sure you’re ready for that?” Bracken asked.

  “Haven’t you heard? We’ve been doing this for over five years. Believe me, we can do this, and we’re going to keep on doing it,” Jake said.

  “I’ve heard a great deal, and you don’t need to feel threatened by me. I have no intention of killing you.” Bracken held his hand up. “Please, I have coffee waiting, and you can even test it if you like.”

  Luiz walked beside his friends, knowing that Bracken might look like a monster, but he wasn’t one.

  There were four seats near the door, with one right in front. The desk was behind the chairs.

  Bracken took a seat.

  Luiz wasn’t the only one who was struggling to deal with the changes. Most businessmen stayed behind the desk. It was a place of power.

  “I see my methods confuse you,” Bracken said.

  “Do you even know what you risk by talking to us?” Donnie asked.

  “I risk nothing. I’ve been living in the same place as all The Family. You wanted to find me, and if I wanted to find you, you’d know about it.”

  “You came after my family,” Luiz said.

  Bracken turned his attention back to him. “Excuse me.”

  “Just over a month ago, you sent a bunch of men, and one of them belonged to Rafael.” He pulled out the ID and threw it at Bracken, who caught it with ease.

  Bracken glanced at it, and nothing happened to his face. No frown, nothing to give him away. Luiz stared at him, waiting.

  “I lost several muscular nerves in my face. I struggle to pull facial features. That was what you were waiting for, right?”

  “I’m sorry.”

  “Don’t be. You’re not the first person to struggle to read me.” Bracken sighed. “I sent the men to kill someone who had made sure I looked like this. I was settling an old score. I had no intention of harming your family.”

  “Xander was a good man. When you knew him, he may not have been, but the last years of his life, he was a good one.”

  “And for that I’m sorry. Some scores need to be settled. I have nothing against you, or your family. I hope Christie and Raine can forgive me in time.”